Can you remember a day that your life was altered and didn’t know it at the time?

I sure can. God has been so good to me through the ups and downs and everything in between. What I mean is that, when God places a dream in your heart, surely he’ll bring it to pass. share your story with me and if you don’t want it published let me know and I’ll keep it between you and I.

Habakkuk 2:3 For the revelation awaits an appointed time; it speaks of the end and will not prove false. Though it linger, wait for it; it will certainly come and will not delay.

In my younger year’s back in a small town in Iowa, talk was in the air of moving away. Far far away is what it seemed since, while the farm life I know has suffered a loss. I could hear mom and dad in the midst of whisper’s, We have to move or we’ll never make it. We have to unearth our roots and leave this town and plant them else where. What does that mean? The life as I know it will not be the same. What about my friend’s? Why is this happening to me? I wanted to graduate with my friend’s, I didn’t know anyone in Arizona. So many questions but how do you confront the issue?

Confused and angry I questioned mom and dad and I didn’t hear what I wanted to hear. I seemed to have been stuck on “moving” and blocked everything else out. Dad and my brother packed and headed out to Arizona to establish residency and employment. Mom and I would soon later meet up with them after we sold and auctioned off what we had left. Fighting and holding back my feeling’s and emotions I began to rebel against the planning and the idea of leaving. It got me know where in a hurry. So I convinced myself that I would return back to where I belong; back to my stomping grounds to what I called home.

A year had come and gone and as much as I thought I’d never say, home is now where my head lay. It wasn’t bad after all, and all that anger I bored kept me from enjoying life as it should of been. I do still miss my friends but time waits for know one and it was time to move forward. Often at times I would look and reflect back and blame my parent’s but not anymore. Well in a year’s time may seem like an eternity to a teenager and yet take almost a life time to understand the message. I wonder even to this day those two little word’s “what if,” what if we didn’t move. What if we or even I stayed or even went back home and something happened to me, or even worse; my family. I didn’t think about that before when I was a teenager, hmmm. Arizona is where I was suppose to be, after all I became to know who the real me is.

Without the pass of blame I remember working a lot not because I wanted to but I had to. We owned a little yogurt shop and I worked and worked and being a responsible teenager was born. I hated it as I couldn’t hang out with my friends or go out and live life and experience new things. My dad instilled within me what I needed, not knowing at the time what it all meant or even why. So I took what was said as just a pep talk and went on with myself. Thank you or OK was my only reply’s, as I went on about my work. My mind was always centered on the words of choice my dad used. He’d always tell me that I was doing a great job and that I make him proud. Back in Iowa we weren’t real close as a family; we’d all do our own thing that didn’t involve family time. What we have hear is what you call father and daughter bonding. Something I needed so desperately that made me appreciate the simple things in life. Even for just a little while it made everything else not so important anymore.

Have I grown up overnight? am I who I’m to be? I thought I was the apple of my daddy’s eye. With tears filling my eye’s and as I stand, the earth trembled before me. The air kicked out of me and the world has stopped and anger knocks at my door to my heart. Your dad has left was the shattered voice of my mom; broken as the pure emotion filled my eye’s, drowning me. I’ve always known as I was taught, “everything happens for a reason.”  Then why is furry and anger lingering within my soul, just when were coming together as a family. Should I pass blame on my dad or my mom or was it me? Questions flooded my mind as what am I suppose to do, how are we going to live. This was all new to me and I was scared on top of all things so I looked for an escape to block this out. Looking towards the heavens I stood before the Lord of song and asked him why are you letting this happen. Please we’re finally a family, don’t do this.

I wasn’t much of getting into the Church thing and singing and worshiping to God like I should of been but I new he was up there. As I come to realize they moved on without each other and so did I. I’ve grown older and married, moving again this time to Missouri. Sixteen years later and so much has happened to me and my family, were still close know matter how far. I’ve endured the ups and down’s, the laughter and the tears, the birth of my beautiful three girls and the loss and death of my late husband. I bottled up all my emotions and allowed them to control my life. Sickness has stricken me as I was diagnosed with Lupus and Rheumatoid arthritis along with the heavy medication as it was to control the pain. I was just going through the motions not knowing if I was coming or going. Then came along prince charming who always had a way of putting word’s together that stirred the senses. He’d always made me feel whole by the way he smiled and talked about God and how Jesus loves me. Then one day he placed one hand on my head and then reached for my hands and prayed over me. I was awe stricken as he rebuked the sickness and the urge to pop any pills for the pain. Can this be for real or is this guy nut’s was my thought as I laughed inside. Wait a minute whats this burning, I feel funny inside; I wasn’t hurting or in need of of my medicine. Is this for real?

This is like woe! what just happened? God does things that don’t make sense but shortly then after I accepted Christ into my heart and begun my transformation as I was born again. I married that man and begun my walk with the Lord. It was soon after that the Lord has been walking and talking with me all along and I didn’t know it. I understand fully that everything does happen for a reason. God places us in the path of others to guide us and lead us to our God given destiny. Not realizing my journey began in Iowa that lead me to Arizona to the life I now have. Indeed life is a never ending education and I thank God for all that was gained and all that I had lost. It’s hard at times to believe that we go through life so full of hate and anger and not even understand the why. Make the best of what you have and who you have it with because they may be gone tomorrow. If I had my way I would of lost out in all God’s blessings. I also thank God for my mom and my dad and even my step dad for instilling in me the seeds of life. I also thank God for my husband, He’s been so patient and loving, caring for me and holding my heart when it was going through the valleys. I’ve come to find that God has done with me a great and miraculous new beginning in another chapter of my life.

Don’t give up on your dreams, just because they don’t happen on your time table doesn’t mean God will not bring them to pass. NO! it means that God may have other plans for you or maybe not yet. God doesn’t close a door without opening another, so be patient and have faith that’s what gets his attention. In the book of Psalm 37:4; it says, Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.